Breathing Room

A few years ago I was reflecting on some of life's dramas and I remember the feeling of overwhelm that was overtaking me. It seems to be a bit of a theme for me - the idea/concept/thought process of whelm. Like a ingrained pattern that seems to be a comfort zone? Sounds so logical in my head, and its a totally different experience reading it written out. 

    Side note: This is why I decided to put myself out there again with a blog. Because it is such a cathartic and eye-opening way of journalling for me. I am more aware of what I am writing, and more aware of how I want to grow - simply because there may be a slight chance that someone else out there actually reads this. Sounds a tad bit crazy, but the fact is, when we include others in on our journey, we will grow differently. It's a conscious choice. 

So, today is Canada Day. I'm not totally sure what that means to me personally, but it was important for us to make time together as a family to be outside, and in the company of some good friends of ours who are awake, aware and thoughtful. The children play so good together, the place we went was busy but it was also private because it was so busy, we were outside, the day was stunning, and just getting a change in perspective and doing something a bit different is really refreshing. It's like allowing yourself some breathing room in a really thoughtful way.  I was having a chat with my friend this afternoon and it kinda led to a bit of complaining/venting/discussing/different perspective/story telling and I realized after I was offered the advice that there actually may be a diagnosed condition about this person - and the suggestion was on that I hadn't considered, it was eye opening. She shared with me about an individual that she knows and how surprised she was at the diagnosis of this individual and how after learning and understanding so much made sense and its shifted her perspective. Very powerful. And it moved me into a place of different understanding, compassion and vision. Ultimately, because it's a relationship thats likely to be around for a long time, both because of circumstances, and also because it's whats 'right' to do, healing this, adjusting my perspective, being more farsighted and loving is where its at. In the moment of breathing room, I remembered what I used to say: "space is love". When done with thoughtful intention and good will for everyone involved - this feels true for me. 

Maybe part of what I am figuring out is that if I give myself the opportunity to have some personal breathing room, and the space needed to think and process and remember; I am a soul, having a human experience, and have the intention mindful around the virtues of love, peace and farsightedness - this could be magic. 

Tonight, out daughter wanted to share with me a dream she's been having, apparently one since she was very little - and it had to do with seeing monsters and devil. As I listened to her share and inform me whats's been going on, I felt this strong urge when it was my time to share, to let her know that what we focus on, give attention to, and ultimately allow into our consciousness, wether that be intentional or not - we give it water, grow it, and allow it to take space. But in order for things to change and adjust, we have to do it from a place of peace, and love. So instead of looking at the thought of monsters or devil as negative or scary, we can use it as a launching point to redirect our thoughts to what we really are looking towards. So I asked her, what is the opposite for you. And she said, Angels and Love. I asked, how does this make you feel? She said better. So, the suggestion was when those things pop into your head and you recognize that it's something and the feeling isn't aligned - you can train your brain to redirect to what feels better, and good for you in that moment. We left this off with just a held look and a big hug. What I took from this was huge too. We can consciously adjust our thoughts to something that feels better. I know this intellectually, and yet, as a human, I get different layers and understandings of this all the damn time. Another little layer grows onto of the previous one, and I am grateful. Law of Attraction, Belief Re-patterning, Raja Yoga, Pranic Healing, and the many other modalities, spiritual teachers and guides, books and podcasts, cards and crystals have all supported this journey and contributed to the layers. Some which are longer, thicker and more stable, and others which may be shorter, thinner and weaker - but they are all important, all valuable, and all encompassing of exactly what needs to be. The plain and simple fact, is that being a human being is not an easy mission to be on, and its a choice in how we play it out. 

Well, today I didn't wear red. not because I didn't try, but because my beautiful emerald green dress was calling my name, and to me it symbolized freedom. So, Happy Canada Day that for me, is intending and focused on creating freedom, breathing room, love, peace, farsightedness, and respect. 

ox

C